After four months home
in England I am now back in Australia and this time with a traveling
companion/soul friend. We landed in Melbourne after a 27 hour flight
and stayed a few lovely days there with another close friend of mine
and their family. It is winter here and Melbourne was basically the
same temperature as back home. We wanted the sunshine. So of course
we found a dream place near the Whitsunday islands and sent an email
thinking they would be booked up and we'd have to join a waiting list
or something but the next morning we received an email confirming
availability to start that coming Monday.. only three days later! We
phoned up and immediately built good rapport. This was actually
happening! Surrounded by rainforest and with the most stunning view
from the balcony of the ocean, this place was a boutique resort
equipped with a Roman style indoor pool, pool table, spa bath and
private apartment for us. The work was easy as only two rooms were
being used for guests. I did some jungle gardening and neatened the
pathway up. The couple who ran it were so grateful and positive even
leaving us in charge of the whole place for a few days and giving us
full use of their Jeep. The trust they had was truly refreshing.
So we stayed there in this paradise for a couple of weeks spending most of our time at the beach soaking up the rays. But something was missing. We were in this luxury and yet there was an empty feeling at times. Most people at the beach had been up partying solid and now were hungover on the sand and with little or no interest in connecting. The connecting happened on the dance floor, after several drinks but that kind of thing didn't appeal to either of us. That kinda thing seems almost futile now. Dancing with friends will always be awesome but the surroundings are important. The ambiance matters. A room of sweating, hormone raging, sexually charged, shallowness is perhaps the traveling dream for some but wasn't the experience we wanted. That's not to say anything is wrong with that and there has been many times in the past where that experience was no brainer. An obvious break from mundane reality. A distraction from the empty feelings that pervade the mind, the loneliness, the regret, the helplessness. The dream of youth.
But that reality is deconstructing and a new sense of aliveness unfurls every day. The diamond once coated in dark muck is slowly peeking through and light shines through the darkness. Helplessness is outwitted by a strong sense of Trust. Loneliness is outshone by a feeling of complete Connectedness. Regret then transforms as Gratefulness unlocks the fullness of life, as reality shifts into High Definition. It is these three things that are key to my journey thus far.
Just being in the sun lifts me up. Just looking to the sky and smiling in awe shifts attention to the beauty of the moment. Moving away from distractions that keep my attention fixed on things that don't serve me, that don't honour who-I-really-am. Respecting totally the variety and contrast that exists in the world and not having to be right all-of-the-time. Moving into a sense of allowing, of no judgement is the goal. Becoming aware of ingrained reactions as they happen and then changing the way I look at the thing I'm reacting to. Being honest and expressing how I feel. Listening.
Not taking things personally and not making assumptions. My God these two things are the root of all drama!
Anyway, we then went on a road trip down the coast and are now staying near Byron at a place called Golden Beach. The sound of the waves lulls us to sleep and in only a few minutes walking we are on the most beautiful beach. White squeaking sand, big waves, blue skies and the nourishing sunlight. Living here makes it so obvious to me that I won't live in England. The whole collective energy here is so much lighter and brighter. Moving away from the dark suppressive angst gives new perspectives, new opportunities and reinforces a sense of magic, a feeling of joy and well-being, a feeling of purpose of Divine design and most of all the knowing that there is so much more than one could ever imagine.
I write this because I choose to express how I feel and make it public record because looking back at this blog I see how far I have journeyed. So here it is. Just for the record.
So we stayed there in this paradise for a couple of weeks spending most of our time at the beach soaking up the rays. But something was missing. We were in this luxury and yet there was an empty feeling at times. Most people at the beach had been up partying solid and now were hungover on the sand and with little or no interest in connecting. The connecting happened on the dance floor, after several drinks but that kind of thing didn't appeal to either of us. That kinda thing seems almost futile now. Dancing with friends will always be awesome but the surroundings are important. The ambiance matters. A room of sweating, hormone raging, sexually charged, shallowness is perhaps the traveling dream for some but wasn't the experience we wanted. That's not to say anything is wrong with that and there has been many times in the past where that experience was no brainer. An obvious break from mundane reality. A distraction from the empty feelings that pervade the mind, the loneliness, the regret, the helplessness. The dream of youth.
But that reality is deconstructing and a new sense of aliveness unfurls every day. The diamond once coated in dark muck is slowly peeking through and light shines through the darkness. Helplessness is outwitted by a strong sense of Trust. Loneliness is outshone by a feeling of complete Connectedness. Regret then transforms as Gratefulness unlocks the fullness of life, as reality shifts into High Definition. It is these three things that are key to my journey thus far.
Just being in the sun lifts me up. Just looking to the sky and smiling in awe shifts attention to the beauty of the moment. Moving away from distractions that keep my attention fixed on things that don't serve me, that don't honour who-I-really-am. Respecting totally the variety and contrast that exists in the world and not having to be right all-of-the-time. Moving into a sense of allowing, of no judgement is the goal. Becoming aware of ingrained reactions as they happen and then changing the way I look at the thing I'm reacting to. Being honest and expressing how I feel. Listening.
Not taking things personally and not making assumptions. My God these two things are the root of all drama!
Anyway, we then went on a road trip down the coast and are now staying near Byron at a place called Golden Beach. The sound of the waves lulls us to sleep and in only a few minutes walking we are on the most beautiful beach. White squeaking sand, big waves, blue skies and the nourishing sunlight. Living here makes it so obvious to me that I won't live in England. The whole collective energy here is so much lighter and brighter. Moving away from the dark suppressive angst gives new perspectives, new opportunities and reinforces a sense of magic, a feeling of joy and well-being, a feeling of purpose of Divine design and most of all the knowing that there is so much more than one could ever imagine.
I write this because I choose to express how I feel and make it public record because looking back at this blog I see how far I have journeyed. So here it is. Just for the record.
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