Across the Wilderness

So I landed in Adelaide a week ago after over starting off the adventure hitching from Perth in Febuary. Words cannot yet describe the journey but, needless to say I will one day intellectualize it all and express it as best I can.
Just being out in the wilderness with nothing for hundreds of miles, no phone reception, no internet and just my belongings in two cases. Incredible!
The distance was almost two thousand miles (or 3200km)

All I can say now is how grateful I am to be on this journey, to have met so many gorgeous humans, to have seen and experienced so much beauty, diversity, culture and love.

I feel as if I have changed a lot. Still obviously, I am me, at the core but a lot of things surrounding the core have changed, evolved. To the point where I look back in almost disbelief at who I used to be. I know now that it was all part of the bigger picture, that each step was necessary to get me where I am now and that I will look back at where I am now years from now and be thinking the same perhaps...


Anyhow, I am heading to the Gold Coast very shortly to do my 3 months regional work in order to get my 2nd year visa (which I shall use in a few years)

 I send my heartfelt love to all back home. To all who've come into my life - for whatever length of time - and made the ride so enriching and brought me to where I am now.  I can't wait to share the adventure and ride it with you all when I return. Know this; that even though there are continents and oceans separating us physically, we are still connected in thought, through love and, if we close our eyes, be still and listen, we can hear the song that is still being woven and that resonates even in the deepest corners of the universe. Sustaining the connection between us.

                                               Life is sweet.
                                                BIG LOVE
                                                        x

DISCLAIMER

Just a quick note on the two previous posts (and indeed all other posts)

Anything written on this blog is purely meant as an online diary, a place to solidify my current thoughts/situation somewhere that will be accessible for many years. Diaries may get lost and files too but online is forever.

If any thought the two posts about life were in any way offensive or arrogant then I apologise but if this is the case then don't visit my blog. I believe in freedom of speech and if my opinion differs to yours then maybe accept the difference; know that I am on my own unique journey and it is my right to solidify my thoughts online.

In other words; haters aint gonna bring me down. Love overpowers all.

All about Life (Part Two)

In the previous post, I talked about the preconditions of life and how society and culture have controlled us. The content of that blog post is the basic frame work to a much bigger picture so, if you have not read the first blog post;.do so HERE.   

Once the realisation occurs; it is vitally important for one to make a shift and incorporate the information. It is one thing to know something but another to truly take it onboard. This is not easy. Well, one could argue that it is so easy, it seems hard. This is because the mind doesn't quite understand, and certainly cannot label or categorize it.

The mind doesn't need to understand it. There should be no striving to fully comprehend it all because then the mind will create a problem (which it loves to do.)

All that is needed, is a knowing. An acceptance. A separation of self from the mind. When one can step back, look at the broader picture and see that this society created sense of self is actually a mere fraction of who we are; then it is as if a huge ray of light is activated. Yes, cultural values do have a part in who we are but to say they fully encompass who we are is like saying that grass IS the Earth! There is more beneath! So much more! This cultural sense of self is just a thin, outer shell.

Right, let us take a little breath. I just revealed that your sense of self is a mere outer shell. This is big news. This is the kind of information that could change the course of your life. It certainly changed mine! So let's just breathe and take this in.

This sense of separation that I talked about is crucial. By separating oneself from the mind, one becomes intimately more connected with something much bigger. The mind is an amazing tool and can be used in magnificent ways! What we don't realise it that our minds use us most of the time. A situation comes up and we get submerged in emotions and, as our minds love solving problems, we get stuck in there. Quite literally. Emotions are physical thoughts that stem from the same source. Emotions are actually the key to enlightenment and – woah wait a minute, did I just write enlightenment? - Okay, let's just call enlightenment everyone's true potential. So, the key to our true potential in life is through our emotions. This does not mean becoming stuck in a rapid spiral of emotion but being able to harness these emotions. So very often we get pulled under by our emotions and it is like a strong wave has sucked us under and we can no longer breathe. These emotions can be positive or negative but they still pull us under. Being 'in love' is a true example. I remember being 'in love' once and just writhing around on the floor is utter bliss for about an hour. All I could think of was that one person. Every second of the day. Hey presto, salvation didn't lie within that one person and nor did the key to happiness. It was within me.

So, when one feels a surge of emotion coming; step back, feel the emotion and let is wash away again. Step back, observe with love and continue. I see eyes rolling again! This is not unrealistic optimism. This is it. The key! Your minds will definitely not like this. Not one bit! Step back, see that your mind is pulling you in again and tell your mind with great love; “I am grateful for your concern but wish to inform you that I am taking responsibility now” Our minds can be like overprotective relatives; thinking they have our best interests at heart, when in actual fact, they just hold us back. Keeping us in a comfortable bubble of security and familiarity. Maybe that is enough for some. Is it enough for you?

The last point I wish to make in this second part is that, separation from our minds and emotions may seem far fetched. But it really isn't. It is so inconceivably easy and in our true nature.

Think of the best scientific breakthroughs. Most came from a time of mind stillness. Eureka moments out of the blue. Think of those times that you have stopped, fell back into your chair and let go; when suddenly something hits you! It could be that book title you were trying to remember, or the fact that a cake is in the oven; currently burning. Let go. Step back. Society is not the only thing that has controlled us. It is time to shift from being a puppet, to a puppeteer. This is the true maturity 

All about Life (part one)

There's a question that, at one point or another, we all ask ourselves  “Where am I going in my life?” Sometimes we don't like to ask ourselves as it forces us to question everything. Are we really happy with our  job? Do we really want to spend the rest of our lives living in routine? Are short bursts of arranged trips enough?
Some of us live our whole lives with such fixed minds that these questions barely ever come to light.

We all think we know the key to 'happiness'

There's a formula right? A 7-step formula to happiness.

1)Go to school and get the qualifications.

2)Go to university and get an enormous debt.

3)Get a good job.

4)Get a mortgage and start your pension.

5)Find someone to mate. To 'complete' you

6) Retire and spend all the retirement money.
7)Die peacefuly in your sleep

There's the formula and may I just say that it's not fixed. The order can change. Some steps are skipped. Or some people 'fail' and end up living alone with a dead end job and a mounting debt.

Let me start off by telling you all that there is so much more!
I can see you all rolling your eyes and wanting to dismiss this. There was a time where I almost dismissed this. After all I grew up surrounded by this formula. I was taught it. We all are. You see it in the movies, you see it all around you. It's like it has been imprinted into us like a stamp. A recipe passed down through the generations and displayed wherever you are as a reminder.
This may be hard to accept. Some may argue that they went on a gap year and got a little gap year necklace. Well that's excellent and must have been a brilliant experience however; what did you do during that time? Stay in youth hostels, eat cans of baked beans and see the sights? Get drunk every night and have many sexual escapades? At least this is something. Yet most of you chose to get back into the 7-step cycle afterwards? A short break from the comfy reality and then back again.

What we all need to realise it that, as a nation, a society, we have allowed ourselves to be used and manipulated and controlled. There are set principles we have to abide to. Certain ways we are expected to be, react, feel and express ourselves. We like to call this 'maturity'

As young children we are free and not yet imprinted by society. We learn from our surroundings, constantly taking things in and incorporating them into our lives. We learn what is expected and acceptable. Sometimes in the harshest of ways.

I am not saying that this is done in a malicious way, quite the opposite! This is done with love from all around us because it is what they were taught and their parents were taught and so on.

Gender is also interesting. Blue room for the boys. Pink for the girls. We like to logically label and categorize everything! The truth is that things aren't as Blue and Pink as they seem. There is no definite line. Things merge and overlap. Sometimes we can see this on a physical level. Hormones, physical features, DNA etc sometimes is is beneath that. Beyond the physical.

What needs to be understood is that we are all born with male and female aspects. Our minds do not like this as it does not seem logical and can't be labelled or put into a category.

I remember when I was 7 and at school. There was such a separateness between gender! The boys thought the girls were disgusting and vice versa. Through this, certain archetypes are born. In order to fit into our gender label there are certain ways to act, react, feel and do. I shan't go into these things because they do vary from culture to culture but needless to say, they are there!

What needs to come to being is a stripping away of these formulas and a burning of the rulebooks to life as we know it. Balance must return. Realisations of the pre-conditionings needs to come to be and we must all strive to strip these preconditions away. The first step is actual realisation. Your minds will be telling you to deny this because without these pre-conditionings who are we?

I cannot tell you this. All I can tell you is that each and everyone of you was born with a blueprint. Most of us forget it as it cannot be intellectually understood. Some of you may get very frustrated in life simply because there is something you know but just cannot access. We all have the inconceivable truth of existence within us. Under the layers of preconditions. Beyond our minds and emotions.

Realising this is the first step. 

On The Road...

Oh how long its been and how much has happened!

I left Perth on Saturday and got the train to Armadale with the intention of hitting the Albany highway to hitch somewhere, anywhere! After a long train journey and a lovely flurry of texts with my sister and a delve into the book she gave me, I arrived and lugged my 3 bags out of the station. One guy saw me looking at my phone is exasperation as it's GPS was playing up and asked me where I wanted to go. He pointed me the right way and I set off in the heat. Already sweating! After ten minutes of walking I arrived at the hitching spot and parked my gear. Literally after 2 minutes someone pulled over and told me he was driving to this restaurant he owned near Wagin in a small town called Dumbleyung. Naturally I enquired about a job and – after 2 months of strenuous job hunting – he mentioned a part time position in his restaurant/hotel as washer up. Food and accom included for about 2 hours work a day! Things really fell into place and after starting this book I was becoming more and more spiritually aware and open. The universe was thanking me. Telling me I was on the right path.

So after 3 hours of driving (and almost overheating the engine) we arrived at this cute little place in the middle of nowhere. Perfect, after a city overdose!

There were a few complications as some weren't too keen on such spontaneity but he was the boss, the manager afterall so he had the final word. I am now typing in my room. A beautiful, cosy room near the balcony. I am so thrilled and at peace with everything. I am ready now.  

CHARLI XCX YOU!

Fuckin' LOVE THIS!

Aussie update 2013

Just Ride...

Hello, hello, hello!

I know it's been F.O.R.E.V.E.R. BUT HEY, bitches, I'm in AUSTRALIA!

Melbourne city to be precise!
Have almost been here a whole month and I absolutely love it.

The freedom. All the amazing, beautiful people I'm meeting and all the crazy experiences, nights outs and chats. 

I could write all day. Tell you everything. 

Another time. 

I love this new video by Lana Del Rey. She is an absolute goddess. Her work, so mesmerizing, so raw. 

LOVE IT