Journey's in Light

After four months home in England I am now back in Australia and this time with a traveling companion/soul friend. We landed in Melbourne after a 27 hour flight and stayed a few lovely days there with another close friend of mine and their family. It is winter here and Melbourne was basically the same temperature as back home. We wanted the sunshine. So of course we found a dream place near the Whitsunday islands and sent an email thinking they would be booked up and we'd have to join a waiting list or something but the next morning we received an email confirming availability to start that coming Monday.. only three days later! We phoned up and immediately built good rapport. This was actually happening! Surrounded by rainforest and with the most stunning view from the balcony of the ocean, this place was a boutique resort equipped with a Roman style indoor pool, pool table, spa bath and private apartment for us. The work was easy as only two rooms were being used for guests. I did some jungle gardening and neatened the pathway up. The couple who ran it were so grateful and positive even leaving us in charge of the whole place for a few days and giving us full use of their Jeep. The trust they had was truly refreshing.

So we stayed there in this paradise for a couple of weeks spending most of our time at the beach soaking up the rays. But something was missing. We were in this luxury and yet there was an empty feeling at times. Most people at the beach had been up partying solid and now were hungover on the sand and with little or no interest in connecting. The connecting happened on the dance floor, after several drinks but that kind of thing didn't appeal to either of us. That kinda thing seems almost futile now. Dancing with friends will always be awesome but the surroundings are important. The ambiance matters. A room of sweating, hormone raging, sexually charged, shallowness is perhaps the traveling dream for some but wasn't the experience we wanted. That's not to say anything is wrong with that and there has been many times in the past where that experience was no brainer. An obvious break from mundane reality. A distraction from the empty feelings that pervade the mind, the loneliness, the regret, the helplessness. The dream of youth.
But that reality is deconstructing and a new sense of aliveness unfurls every day. The diamond once coated in dark muck is slowly peeking through and light shines through the darkness. Helplessness is outwitted by a strong sense of Trust. Loneliness is outshone by a feeling of complete Connectedness. Regret then transforms as Gratefulness unlocks the fullness of life, as reality shifts into High Definition. It is these three things that are key to my journey thus far.

Just being in the sun lifts me up. Just looking to the sky and smiling in awe shifts attention to the beauty of the moment. Moving away from distractions that keep my attention fixed on things that don't serve me, that don't honour who-I-really-am. Respecting totally the variety and contrast that exists in the world and not having to be right all-of-the-time. Moving into a sense of allowing, of no judgement is the goal. Becoming aware of ingrained reactions as they happen and then changing the way I look at the thing I'm reacting to. Being honest and expressing how I feel. Listening.

Not taking things personally and not making assumptions. My God these two things are the root of all drama!

Anyway, we then went on a road trip down the coast and are now staying near Byron at a place called Golden Beach. The sound of the waves lulls us to sleep and in only a few minutes walking we are on the most beautiful beach. White squeaking sand, big waves, blue skies and the nourishing sunlight. Living here makes it so obvious to me that I won't live in England. The whole collective energy here is so much lighter and brighter. Moving away from the dark suppressive angst gives new perspectives, new opportunities and reinforces a sense of magic, a feeling of joy and well-being, a feeling of purpose of Divine design and most of all the knowing that there is so much more than one could ever imagine.

I write this because I choose to express how I feel and make it public record because looking back at this blog I see how far I have journeyed. So here it is. Just for the record.

Divine Love

I look you in the eyes and sense the magic.

Looking deep within they communicate.

Feelings interweaving,

Spirits through the ceiling,

Poetry in silence to infinity.

Friendship running deep past seeming logic,

Intricate yet simple and divine.

Activating or unlocking

Lifting to new heights

Sharing in a union of bliss.                                 

                                          

Architecture To Your Mind (Experimental song)

An experimental song I have been working on in my free time!
Hope you enjoy!

The Infinite Song

Forged in a time long ago,
long before this earth and universe;
a Love was born so mighty
that it birthed a supernova.
Millions of stars were created,
a brave new new Sun was born.
Around the Sun these stars shone,
basking in light of creation;
drawing in light, spreading love,
shooting rays of bliss.

These stars they shone around the Sun,
glistening in a pure perfection.
And from this shining brilliance,
vibrations of music resonated.
Wispy and faint they began,
like threads of a golden resin.
Penetrating new depths of darkness,
the music grew to a crescendo.

When this earth and universe were born,
it shone down in glorious splendour,
nurturing and cheering the life evolving.
And so it was felt by these new life forms,
as they all came from the Light.
It felt like a home, reminding them.
Guiding them back to the stars.

For it is not the flesh that embodies them,
nor their possessions or power.
It is the light beneath and beyond their minds,
the infinite song of Love.

- Matthias Poynder-Meares

Regional Work & Sydney

So I have completed my 88 days of required Regional work in order to attain my 2nd Working Holiday Visa for Australia and I am now residing in Sydney, working in a little cafe called The Porch in a nearby suburb.

So I suppose I should start where I last left off. Adelaide:

My stay in Adelaide was interesting and such fun. I stayed in a vegan household up in Eden Hills and it was there I met some more rather wonderful people and engaged in numerous meditations, and yoga sessions. So it was what I now see as a much needed detox: Physically, emotionally and spiritually. After 2 wonderful weeks there it was time to start my Regional work and I had already emailed a farm near Byron where my sister had attained hers. It all seemed go, go, go when the day before I flew to the Gold Coast I received an email from them detailing that they were currently FULL.
So I researched like crazy till way after midnight and found a nice looking place near Mount Tamborine. Sent email and went to bed. Woke up with a reply of acceptance and jumped on the plane. Was picked up by the owner and for 23 days I worked on this commercial flower farm in the gorgeous rainforest surrounding Tamborine. It was there also that I made more wonderful friends and even had my own room with double bed & flat screen TV!

It was at the pub one night that I received an email from the original farm saying they now had room for me and so I packed up and bussed into a small rural town called Murwillumbah.
It was there I was picked up and introduced to the Hare Krishna farm and all 50 of the other travellers WWOOFing there. What a magnificent place! So many incredible memories and absolutely exquisite food. If I were to detail everything that went on there in the following 2 months I fear this post would be rather astronomically long and so I will cut to the chase by saying after being granted my 2nd year visa I hitched to Coffs harbour where I was offered to spend the night at this couples house on thieR couch. Their place was idyllic and we went on a rainforest walk, saw a platypus, drank crystal clear blue water from a flowing waterfall and ate home-made soup. The next day I hitched on, stopping in Bellingen briefly and then getting a ride all the way to Sydney where I had arranged to do Helpx in an apartment.

So I have now been in Sydney for almost a week, have a job in a cafe just 2 minutes walk from the apartment and I plan to stay here a good while to save up for coming home at Christmas.

Well, I must be off as the cafe has a Grand Opening Night tonight and the press will be there at 6pm

Love & Hugs

Monsieur Smile

XOXO

Across the Wilderness

So I landed in Adelaide a week ago after over starting off the adventure hitching from Perth in Febuary. Words cannot yet describe the journey but, needless to say I will one day intellectualize it all and express it as best I can.
Just being out in the wilderness with nothing for hundreds of miles, no phone reception, no internet and just my belongings in two cases. Incredible!
The distance was almost two thousand miles (or 3200km)

All I can say now is how grateful I am to be on this journey, to have met so many gorgeous humans, to have seen and experienced so much beauty, diversity, culture and love.

I feel as if I have changed a lot. Still obviously, I am me, at the core but a lot of things surrounding the core have changed, evolved. To the point where I look back in almost disbelief at who I used to be. I know now that it was all part of the bigger picture, that each step was necessary to get me where I am now and that I will look back at where I am now years from now and be thinking the same perhaps...


Anyhow, I am heading to the Gold Coast very shortly to do my 3 months regional work in order to get my 2nd year visa (which I shall use in a few years)

 I send my heartfelt love to all back home. To all who've come into my life - for whatever length of time - and made the ride so enriching and brought me to where I am now.  I can't wait to share the adventure and ride it with you all when I return. Know this; that even though there are continents and oceans separating us physically, we are still connected in thought, through love and, if we close our eyes, be still and listen, we can hear the song that is still being woven and that resonates even in the deepest corners of the universe. Sustaining the connection between us.

                                               Life is sweet.
                                                BIG LOVE
                                                        x

DISCLAIMER

Just a quick note on the two previous posts (and indeed all other posts)

Anything written on this blog is purely meant as an online diary, a place to solidify my current thoughts/situation somewhere that will be accessible for many years. Diaries may get lost and files too but online is forever.

If any thought the two posts about life were in any way offensive or arrogant then I apologise but if this is the case then don't visit my blog. I believe in freedom of speech and if my opinion differs to yours then maybe accept the difference; know that I am on my own unique journey and it is my right to solidify my thoughts online.

In other words; haters aint gonna bring me down. Love overpowers all.

All about Life (Part Two)

In the previous post, I talked about the preconditions of life and how society and culture have controlled us. The content of that blog post is the basic frame work to a much bigger picture so, if you have not read the first blog post;.do so HERE.   

Once the realisation occurs; it is vitally important for one to make a shift and incorporate the information. It is one thing to know something but another to truly take it onboard. This is not easy. Well, one could argue that it is so easy, it seems hard. This is because the mind doesn't quite understand, and certainly cannot label or categorize it.

The mind doesn't need to understand it. There should be no striving to fully comprehend it all because then the mind will create a problem (which it loves to do.)

All that is needed, is a knowing. An acceptance. A separation of self from the mind. When one can step back, look at the broader picture and see that this society created sense of self is actually a mere fraction of who we are; then it is as if a huge ray of light is activated. Yes, cultural values do have a part in who we are but to say they fully encompass who we are is like saying that grass IS the Earth! There is more beneath! So much more! This cultural sense of self is just a thin, outer shell.

Right, let us take a little breath. I just revealed that your sense of self is a mere outer shell. This is big news. This is the kind of information that could change the course of your life. It certainly changed mine! So let's just breathe and take this in.

This sense of separation that I talked about is crucial. By separating oneself from the mind, one becomes intimately more connected with something much bigger. The mind is an amazing tool and can be used in magnificent ways! What we don't realise it that our minds use us most of the time. A situation comes up and we get submerged in emotions and, as our minds love solving problems, we get stuck in there. Quite literally. Emotions are physical thoughts that stem from the same source. Emotions are actually the key to enlightenment and – woah wait a minute, did I just write enlightenment? - Okay, let's just call enlightenment everyone's true potential. So, the key to our true potential in life is through our emotions. This does not mean becoming stuck in a rapid spiral of emotion but being able to harness these emotions. So very often we get pulled under by our emotions and it is like a strong wave has sucked us under and we can no longer breathe. These emotions can be positive or negative but they still pull us under. Being 'in love' is a true example. I remember being 'in love' once and just writhing around on the floor is utter bliss for about an hour. All I could think of was that one person. Every second of the day. Hey presto, salvation didn't lie within that one person and nor did the key to happiness. It was within me.

So, when one feels a surge of emotion coming; step back, feel the emotion and let is wash away again. Step back, observe with love and continue. I see eyes rolling again! This is not unrealistic optimism. This is it. The key! Your minds will definitely not like this. Not one bit! Step back, see that your mind is pulling you in again and tell your mind with great love; “I am grateful for your concern but wish to inform you that I am taking responsibility now” Our minds can be like overprotective relatives; thinking they have our best interests at heart, when in actual fact, they just hold us back. Keeping us in a comfortable bubble of security and familiarity. Maybe that is enough for some. Is it enough for you?

The last point I wish to make in this second part is that, separation from our minds and emotions may seem far fetched. But it really isn't. It is so inconceivably easy and in our true nature.

Think of the best scientific breakthroughs. Most came from a time of mind stillness. Eureka moments out of the blue. Think of those times that you have stopped, fell back into your chair and let go; when suddenly something hits you! It could be that book title you were trying to remember, or the fact that a cake is in the oven; currently burning. Let go. Step back. Society is not the only thing that has controlled us. It is time to shift from being a puppet, to a puppeteer. This is the true maturity